Loser

It has been 2 weeks since I have spoken to him. The last time we talked, he was drunk. He told me he would call me in the morning. I guess it was drunken talk then. I do remember that he wanted to lay low on me. That's the only reason why I am not calling him. I am giving him all the space he wants. Yet it's painful. It has been hard for me to go through the days not knowing what's really going on. It's like a gray area. I don't understand why we're not talking. It's hard when you're in love. Wherever angle you look, you always end up as the loser when things go wrong. And right now, I'm the biggest loser.