something going on

men. when you get into a relationship with a man, one that you can't define as romantic or sexual or friendly, you get into mind games. and for you not to get burned, you need to set boundaries. yes there is something going on. yes you miss him. yes he misses you. then what? what about it? what's going on?

sooner than later, before i came to realize it, he has crept right through my soul. now it hurts like hell everytime i think of him. knowing i can't have him. knowing i'm nothing special to him. knowing i'm just a passing through for him.

1 month, 10 days. this relationsip has been bugging me that long. something is keeping us together yet something is holding us back. or rather, holding him back. coz i know that if he only asks me, i might actually go to him. might. that's the catch. there're no denying of the attraction. what's doubtful is the intent. is it for play? or is it for real?

i am giving this a timeline. at the end of this week, i will decide whether to continue talking with him or not. saying that, it seems like at the end of this week, i am deciding to let him go. coz i can feel that he would rather let me go, than actually make something out of what we currently have. sad.

letting go. the hardest thing to do when you feel that there is something left. something not yet done.